Watching a random drama and the female lead reflects,
With a little bit of spare time now, I am beginning to think if my childhood dreams are still things I subconsciously still want to achieve but have given up hope on.
I knew there was a time when I wanted to be a singer. Maybe not the mainstream pop kind who produce thrashy albums. But I wanted to sing. Evaluating my options, singing as a career is not possible at all (I sing decently well but not well enough to earn a living) but singing as a past time is definitely plausible. New goal: To sing at some open mic night to unleash the singing diva in me again. HAHA.
And then there was a time I wanted to be a pilot. Well, I had the opportunity to fulfill that dream as a career when I was 19. I gave up on that dream to chase the current career that I have. Do I regret it? Not really. But I do wonder from time to time what it would be like if I had taken up the opportunity. Well, now I don't think I want to be a pilot anymore. But if I ever have the chance and money to get a private flying license, I will definitely consider it. (Typical example of the conflict of realities and dreams ha.) But I want to still want to fly. So.. New goal: Skydive!
The last and perhaps most practical dream I had when I was 16, was to be a journalist. With some blessings from Lady Luck, I was transferred to the corporate comms department in my organisation for 1.5 years about 3 years ago. It was really a random godsend because I have no prior experience or qualifications in the world of media and communications. The learning curve was steep but I enjoyed what I did and learnt fast. Do I still want to be a journalist? I am not sure. But I know I am still interested in that field. And so, I shall equip myself with the skills required for me to grab the chance when it presents itself. New goal: Attend some kind of comms course to open up options.
Last but definitely not least, I sort of came to a conclusion that my purpose in life is to positively influence people around me. That is also why I am always very affected by things and people seemingly unrelated to me. I want to be able to positively influence people and when I fail to do that I blame myself for it (something my ex couldn't handle). So (with a little bit of impulse), I have signed up to volunteer at a place which coaches youths-at-risk. There is nothing more apt than volunteering there to fulfill the higher calling in me.
I don't know how long I will keep these dreams and the actions to realise these dreams for. But I know for now I will give my best to chase these long-forgotten dreams and I hope you will do the same too.
What dreams have you forgotten about? Do you still want to achieve them? (Note: Don't ask if you still can.. but ask if you still WANT.)
All the best chasing our dreams guys.
-j
When you are young, people often ask you, "What's your dream?" But as you get older, less people ask you about your dreams.
The world makes it hard for adults to keep their dreams. And reality creates distance between you and your dream. The dream begins to feel insignificant and you forget about it altogether.
But before you completely forget about the dream... (cross-cutting of another scene) Then luckily, even as an adult, someone asked me about my dream again.It has been long since dreams were of any concern to me. Realities of life and work and financial concerns took priority. Before breaking up with my ex, he asked me many times, "What is your purpose in life?", "What do you want to achieve in life?" There were many things I wanted to achieve and to fulfill in this life. However, looking back, none of these were related to my dreams when I was young.
With a little bit of spare time now, I am beginning to think if my childhood dreams are still things I subconsciously still want to achieve but have given up hope on.
I knew there was a time when I wanted to be a singer. Maybe not the mainstream pop kind who produce thrashy albums. But I wanted to sing. Evaluating my options, singing as a career is not possible at all (I sing decently well but not well enough to earn a living) but singing as a past time is definitely plausible. New goal: To sing at some open mic night to unleash the singing diva in me again. HAHA.
And then there was a time I wanted to be a pilot. Well, I had the opportunity to fulfill that dream as a career when I was 19. I gave up on that dream to chase the current career that I have. Do I regret it? Not really. But I do wonder from time to time what it would be like if I had taken up the opportunity. Well, now I don't think I want to be a pilot anymore. But if I ever have the chance and money to get a private flying license, I will definitely consider it. (Typical example of the conflict of realities and dreams ha.) But I want to still want to fly. So.. New goal: Skydive!
The last and perhaps most practical dream I had when I was 16, was to be a journalist. With some blessings from Lady Luck, I was transferred to the corporate comms department in my organisation for 1.5 years about 3 years ago. It was really a random godsend because I have no prior experience or qualifications in the world of media and communications. The learning curve was steep but I enjoyed what I did and learnt fast. Do I still want to be a journalist? I am not sure. But I know I am still interested in that field. And so, I shall equip myself with the skills required for me to grab the chance when it presents itself. New goal: Attend some kind of comms course to open up options.
Last but definitely not least, I sort of came to a conclusion that my purpose in life is to positively influence people around me. That is also why I am always very affected by things and people seemingly unrelated to me. I want to be able to positively influence people and when I fail to do that I blame myself for it (something my ex couldn't handle). So (with a little bit of impulse), I have signed up to volunteer at a place which coaches youths-at-risk. There is nothing more apt than volunteering there to fulfill the higher calling in me.
I don't know how long I will keep these dreams and the actions to realise these dreams for. But I know for now I will give my best to chase these long-forgotten dreams and I hope you will do the same too.
What dreams have you forgotten about? Do you still want to achieve them? (Note: Don't ask if you still can.. but ask if you still WANT.)
All the best chasing our dreams guys.
-j
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